Here Comes the Pain again...

I was hoping that I wouldn't have to write this post, but that was probably just wishful thinking on my part.  After starting to make small improvements in my pain and other symptoms, I was very optimistic that I would continue to improve slowly, but it seems that it's not the case.

Feeling like my Endometriosis is waging a war against my body and the medication that I'm on which is supposed to be giving me some relief from my symptoms.

Not much to say today really.  It's just so hard when you begin to see a glimmer of hope and then the door is slammed shut in your face and you feel like you're falling back down the hole again.

                               

Endo Empowered!

On the one hand, I am feeling a bit Endo Empowered lately.  It's like a little celebration every day that I can carry on with less pain than I've had since 2013.  To know that the Endometriosis, Adenomyosis and troublesome ovary are all under control on the pill is a good thing.

But on the other hand, there is the fatigue! The dark heavy cloud that I am living under every single day with what appears to be little or no relief whatsoever.  It's hard to carry on some days when you are so exhausted and lacking in energy, which in turn leads to being unmotivated.

As usual, it's swings and roundabouts in my Endo world.  My job is to just try and find the silver lining hiding under every cloud.

P.S.  Photo below is the view from my hospital window last year.  Pretty nice if you can get a window cubicle as it makes hospital life a little more bearable ☺

Another date with Dr V

Today I had another date with my favourite medical person Dr V.

This was probably my first appointment where Dr V and I both came away happy, which is saying a lot considering we have been together in a Doctor + Patient relationship since January 2014.  When I walked into her room in November she said to me "The last 2 girls I've had in here have gone away happy, so I hope you can be the third."  Unfortunately back then, it wasn't to be as I was still in a lot of pain every minute of the day.

This appointment was different though, mostly because in the last couple of weeks I have been experiencing significantly less pain.  This is awesome for a lot of reasons, but mostly because it's the most 'pain free to an extent' that I have been since mid 2013.  For Dr V, it was probably awesome because that means that this is the first drug that she has tried me on that has actually worked in reducing my long term pain.

Another triumph for me is that now that this drug is working to reduce my pain, no other Doctors can tell me that I have nerve pain / neuropathic pain / habitual pain etc.  My pain is real and it has a gynaecological cause, so to the Gastro Doctors, GPs, Pain Specialists I WAS RIGHT ALL ALONG!

Dr V is really happy altogether with my progress because my pain is reduced and my latest ultrasound scan came back looking good and like everything was gradually settling down.  She wants to see me again in the middle of the year and said to me before I left "Now maybe you can have your life back", and to be honest, that's exactly how it feels.